salam people...its been a looooooong time since i updated my bog...quite missed it tho...i have a lot of things to write here but since my battery is low and i was alone rite now in the middle of the night..i guess i shud juz write what are in my mind rite now...
HURRRMMMM....what ah??
yeah, i juz want to muhasabah my own self...my attitude towards other..
i am not a great person..faaarrr more than perfect..
im trying to be kind to other people but sumtimes it juz feels like "tak ikhlas" u noe...
y?maybe the person asking me for help at the wrong time...
at the time when i feel like i want to juz stay alone for a while...
but for a fren's sake, i have to "paksa" myself to do it..
don't u ever felt this way before?or is it juz me being a real bad person..
and one more things, i've never had a problem when dealing with frens...
except when the fren are getting on my nerves..
i've tried the best that i can to be like my ownself in frenship..but people just don't get it..
i dunno why...its not like i dun care about other's feeling or what..but i just like to keep things to myself whenever i dun like a person's attitude or things that a fren does that annoyed me for a long time...
and by the time that i cannot take it anymore...i will explode...but not like explode and go straight to his/her face and shout : Hey!!!i hate you do this and it annoyed me like hell!!!
come on, i still care about other's feeling ok...and im not like dat...
my mom said that if u can't accept the fren's style or u just feel very miserable by it...then leave it..
and let he/she go so that he/she can be frens with someone that really understand him/her...
yeah, thats my principle in frenship..sounds cruel and selfish rite?but that's what i think is the best way to solve the problem...who has greater idea than mine...feel free to share it...
sumetimes i like to be in the shower and take a loooooooong nap because that was when i feel i happy and no one can disturbed me and i dun have to deal with other people...yeah...smpai tahap 2 kan? i dunno why but it just feels great to sleep and feel very calm.... i like to talk to myself..yeah..weird huh?but by that way i can feel more relieved and all the stress come out eventho the problem is not settled yet when i got out from the bath or bed...this is me..and who i really am...
if u can't accept this...think of who u r first...
please and tq...may peace be upon u...
